Political Dinosaurs

Afraid of everything that disagrees with you.  Everything that doesn't play out the way you see it, is  going to end tragically for everyone, especially you.  You don't want to find a solution to the problems of the world we all share.  You just want your way.  Even when the facts don't way out for your argument, you will simply deny them, and attack the messenger.  You want everything to stay the same.  You want it to be the same as it was when you were young and happy and safe.  You want this even though a part of your thinking recognizes that the world has changed dramatically since you were a child.  You want only to hear from sources that support your view, and to get that you'll limit yourself to a very small handful of resources. You want your way so badly that you won't risk actually searching out information at its source.  You won't read anything but those things that align with your policy.  You are so convinced you are right, that you have villainized anything and anyone that goes against you.  You don't really want debate, so you have convinced yourself that the opposition is ignorant, brainwashed or misguided.  You believe that because you are in a minority, there will be no way to win a debate, for you see them all as shouting matches with little substance.  Rather than develop a new strategy and change the world for the better, for everyone, you would rather dig in your heals and shake your fist at anyone who disparages your stand.  You can't understand why the world seems to be getting dumber,  never considering for a moment how misinformed or misguided you really are...  the good news is, that when you fail, the people who you deemed your enemy have always held a place at the table for you.  You can not say the same of your camp or your policy.

Some use the words of their religious texts to help them understand God.  I understand this, since I spent many years searching the Holy Bible for clues to my purpose, my salvation, my worth on this earth.  I finally gave up, and embarked on a journey of information & discovery.  What else was out there for others, spiritually, that I might identify with?

My studies, and research brought me to a place where I could exhale, and except the world, the beliefs, the differences, the historic, the new...they all could exist in my new understanding of LIFE on this planet.  I could conceive that NONE of us know for certain.  That made better sense to me.

I dreamt one night, and awoke feeling elated.  In my dream I had been in the ocean, floating about.  I wasn't a fish, I didn't have a form at all.  I felt calm, and peaceful, and comfortable in my place in the ocean.  Then, things started changing.  The ocean became turbulent, I was tossed about haphazardly.  I tumbled through the surf, and I became scared.  A voice quieted me as I struggled, saying, "Be still, you are being launched into the world to experience everything that you can.  Do not waste your time, experience everything that presents itself to you.  You do this for a reason.  You live for a reason.  Go, discover, see, experience all that the earth has to offer.  Bring these things back to me."

In my mind a picture materialized.  It was of the pounding ocean.  As it battered the rocky cliffs, the waves fractured into billions of fragments, spraying violently up into the air.  The vision froze in that moment and I became aware of myself, as one of the droplets flying out from the what I knew was my creator.  For a freeze frame of time I glanced around me.  There were so many droplets just like me.  All of us sent forth to experience life as humans, physically exploring the earth.

I woke from this dream feeling excited.  I laid in my bed trying to immortalize the feelings I had experience in this dream.  The feeling of belonging completely...barely aware of having a self at all.  This was a feeling so profound that I immediately stopped fearing DYING.  In fact, I couldn't wait to go back to my source.  It's where I belonged!

But the rest of the dream spoke to me about experiencing everything I could.  It made clear to me that the longer I stayed, the more I would experience, learn, and bring back to my creator, all that it meant to be human.  I know this may not make sense to everyone, and I'm sorry.  But for me, it was perfectly clear.  We are born into human bodies to experience the most magical physical life that we can conjure.  We only have so much time to experience physical life, before we are called back to the ocean that is our source.

Some of us spring forth knowing exactly what we came to do.  Others burst upon the shore knowing nothing, succumbing to the practices that distract us from our journeys.  That too, is an experience that God wants to experience.

At the end of the day, I dreamt of what life is.  I know to my core that I was given a gift.  I was offered the chance to see the end game of my life.  Not the happenings that would define my life....no.  I was given the gift of understanding that the incidence that make up my life are small in comparison to the WHOLE of my existence on earth.  That my moment here is very important.  My life is purposeful, whether or not I understand it!

Thank you, Devine guides, or God, or whoever brought me to this revelation.  I am grateful.  I will not waste this information.  I will do my best to experience as much as I can, for my curious God.  This I can do.